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Mostly heartache. Find a corner and cry in it.

This song seems to encapsulate everything I can think about right now.
I’m in the worst place, and all I can do is listen to sad songs, trying to find some hope or meaning from them. All I can ever really find is truth.
“When the world keeps spinning round, and my world’s upside down and I wouldn’t change a thing.”
I would change many things
All I Wanted - Paramore
I suspect there will be many more songs to describe my state of mind while I just lie here with nothing to do, and nothing to look forward to. I love that feeling you get when you realise that everything struggle you’ve fought through, every amazing experience encountered, everything everyone else has done for you…… amounts to nothing.
It’s the struggles in life that make life what it is. The fight for the things you thought you wanted turns out to be the only thing you want.
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Professor Stephen Malley - Lions For Lambs
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Secret - Maroon 5
Oh yeah, that’s more like it.
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY